Fierce Humbleness... Creating the life you want.

Hello my friends,

Boy has it been a journey over the last 13 months. I have been continuously writing but I did not have everything synchronized to post. I will sum it all up for you here. 2022 was the most amazing year of my life and also the hardest. I had the highest highs which led to the lowest lows. I am really working on ways to mediate that and bring more balance into the roller coaster of life. I have learned so much about myself in the last few years. I can't wait to continue sharing all of my knowledge and life experience with you all. I am grateful for every single one of you that has joined me on this journey. Truly am blessed in this life to have met so many incredible people.

Spring 2022 I thought I had it figured out. I thought I was ready to become who I was meant to become. I decided to pursue the mindset world and jumped into a program to help build that. It was incredible and I gained a ton of knowledge and met some great faces in the industry. It was such a beautiful thing....I just wasn't ready for it yet. I had some major work to do on myself still. God/the universe put me in my place and humbled me. I needed to learn patience, humbleness, and so many more lessons. So my mind/balance continued to plummet. I decided I would just "grind it out". Boy was that the wrong assumption. The rest of the summer was just a blur. I had checked out of the Bryce I knew. I didn't know who I was anymore. I didn't know where I was going or why I was here.

Fast forward to August 2022 and I needed to find something to do financially to bring some money. I ended up finding some work through my best friend. I was supposed to start early August and my mindset was still garbage. I was trying to just push through and grind it out until I left in November to head south. That mentality will never work. You can't just run from your problems and that is exactly what I was trying to do. I was trying to change my scenery, environment, people, etc. to fix myself when what I NEEDED to do was to dig internally. To dig in deep and start upgrading myself.

Back to starting the job. A few days before I was supposed to start I needed a refill of my emergency medication. The one I use when I start to "lose my sh*t". I called and asked for a refill but my doctor was not in and long story short I ended up not getting those meds for almost 6 days. I completely broke. I was so angry the my business wasn't going, how I had wasted away the summer, etc etc. I was angry at the world. When, in hindsight, I was only angry at myself and how I was not where I thought I should be. I finally received my meds but the damage had been done. The anger was there to stay. I began drinking quite a bit more to try and reduce the anxiety and take the anger away. Well, we all know how that doesn't work. I made it about a month in and one week we had a slower week so the "grind it out" came full circle and I crashed. I crashed into a mental space I had never been before. And it became DARK.

(Trigger Warning) I had convinced myself that the pain was too much. I had convinced myself that I was never getting out of the hole I had dug. I got to a point where I looked in the mirror on the last day of August and the Bryce I knew was gone. My soul was not there anymore. The light inside and become so dim even my smiles weren't my smiles. I decided the pain was too much and the lethal emotional pain had won. So I drank a bunch and took some other things hoping I wouldn't wake up......And I woke up. That feeling of knowing you are still here but not here was the most empty shattered feeling I had ever had. There are details about the next night that I am still not ready to share but somehow someway through Divine intervention or something I am still here. I somehow made it through both of.those nights. But I was broken. So begins the new journey I am on.

One that is filled with healing, courage, confidence, pain, struggle, and so much more. I am definitely still learning and will always be on this beautiful healing journey. But I have found Bryce again. I have found the love for myself again. I think I needed that dark angry place to humble myself and have the eye opening moment of how beautiful life is. How incredibly grateful and lucky to be alive is. I have a new sense of what it means to feel alive. I have a new sense of what it means to FEEL. I am not perfect and I definitely don't have it all figured out and probably never will but what I do know is this life is so truly magical.

I do know that we are blessed to be alive.

I do know that we have one shot at this.

I do know that whatever situation you are in that time will help it pass. "This too shall pass"

I do know that finances create incredible stress in your life but knowing and writing down the things that are in your control vs. out of your control changed my life.

I do know that we are learning more about the brain every day.

I do know that no one else will understand your vision until it becomes reality so only tell a select few.

I do know that gratitude can change your life.

I do know that LOVE can change your life.

I do know that I need to be more open and honest when I am struggling.

And I do know that changing your mindset can change your life.

So, that is what this year is all about. Putting myself through pain and uncomfortableness will force me to become the person I am meant to be.

That's why this year is "THE YEAR OF UNCOMFORTABLENESS"

Become so uncomfortable we don't have a choice but to level up.

It's time to become who you are meant to become.

Thank you for reading my friends.

See you soon and remember to "Support the Intended"

Bryce Pazdernik

Support the Intended